I have a good excuse at least.

I know it's April 1st, but this aint no April fools people. I am pregnant. It feels a little redundant posting this here seeing as how most of our friends already know this thanks to John being bad at keeping secrets, and then our earlier-than-planned announcement on facebook about a week ago.

So I'm 3 months along, and we couldn't be happier about it. I'm sure a lot of you have lots of questions - so let's just share some info and FAQ's.

1. No, we DID NOT do In Vitro Fertilization or IUI or any fertility treatment whatsoever. This was an all natural happy-accident.
2. Yes, we WERE completely shocked. Those words really don't do it justice, and to be honest, I still haven't wrapped my head around howinthefreakingworld this happened.
3. Our Dr. is also shocked. Maybe even more than us. He has been so great and given me 3 ultrasounds so far just to prove to me this is really happening. Every time I feel like I'm literally having an out-of-body experience. That just can't be my body on that screen, with a baby in it, that we didn't surgically implant in there : ) But it is...
4. We were told by our fertility Dr. that we had less than a 2% chance of ever conceiving on our own. IVF was always supposed to be our only option.
5. We aren't one of those couples who mysteriously can't get pregnant, we have a list of reasons for our infertility. If you are one of my friends who told me after we adopted that I would "just get pregnant now, I have a friend who adopted a baby after years of infertility and then she just got pregnant!" I probably hated you for saying that. It's ok, don't worry, I most likely forgave you for it, but I KNEW that would never be us. Our Dr.'s knew that would never be us. We never expected it to change. There is no explanation as to how/why it did, but here we are.
6. Lastly, YES we are a little tiny bit scared about our kids all being so young (ok, mostly just I am scared) and yes it was unexpected so the timing is not what we technically would have chosen (I did NOT want to be pregnant when we are moving...) but honestly, we couldn't be happier or more excited.

Does that cover most of it? To further explain how completely caught off guard we were, I didn't even take a pregnancy test until I was 9 weeks "late". Most people pay attention to that kind of thing, but we have never needed to. I was moody and stressed and had been sick with colds and pink eye for a month before I realized how late I was. I honestly thought I was just super stressed about house hunting and building. I STILL waited a week to say anything to John, and then we waited ANOTHER week before buying a test. I knew the night John went to buy one that it was the dumbest waste of $15 ever, and of course I wasn't pregnant. So I told him to buy the cheapest one, knowing it would be negative anyway, but then it wasn't. And we freaked the hell out. If you notice in the picture there are 3 tests, and one is negative. That is because I didn't believe I was seeing 2 lines on the first test, so I made John pee on the second one in the box, to see what a definitely negative one looked like. My poor husband. I still didn't believe it, so I sent him straight back to the drugstore at 10pm to buy a REAL digital test that would spell out the word "pregnant" so I would believe it. I took it and 2 seconds later that is what showed up on the screen. Pregnant. We were literally in our little basement bedroom screaming and laughing and probably being so weird. I still can't believe that night really happened. Seriously. The next morning was monday and I called my Dr. at 7am to demand he see me that day. That ultrasound revealed I was actually only 6 weeks along instead of 9 like I technically should have been, but the baby was definitely there, and had a heartbeat, and while I laid on the table having another completely surreal out-of-body experience, I could hear my sweet Dr. using words and phrases like "tender mercy" and "divine intervention" and "miracle". Other than feeling awful with morning sickness and fatigue, I feel like we have been floating the last month and a half. I don't know how else to describe it. We feel so lucky, but we know luck really has nothing to do with it.

I know probably nobody is reading this now, except maybe my mom, but I had to write this, because I never want to forget this feeling. I never really want this pregnancy to feel "normal". I want this baby to know someday how happy and thrilled we are that it joined our family this unexpected way.

Be prepared for lots more post about this pregnancy. It will be my last, so I plan to document it pretty well. I was too busy enjoying my pregnancy with Boston to write about it or take many pictures. I'm glad that I did it that way, but this time I'll journal a little better.

So, there it is. My good excuse for being a bad blogger.

Cheers to our soon to be family of 5, and to mini-van shopping!