Had my 36 week appt today...
Still not dilated...
Ridiculous...
Considering I've been almost fully effaced for almost 7 weeks this is surprising and frustrating. I want to dilate so I will go into labor on my own, and preferably soon. The Dr told me a few weeks ago if I get to 39 weeks he will induce me if I choose... so naturally, I was counting down to Jan 23rd as the last possible day I will deliver. Well, turns out he tells lies. (Really I love him, but today I actually hate him). Not only was I hoping to convince him today to do an induction a little earlier, like 38 or 38 and a 1/2 weeks, due to my brothers mission farewell, but he told me he will induce me the Monday before my due date. Which MEANS.... TWO FREAKIN DAYS EARLY! I had in my head a week early. There is a big difference between 39 weeks, and 39 weeks and 5 days. John doesn't get it. He was disappointed obviously, but he didn't get why I was bawling when we got in the car. Cried all the way home. And am fighting tears even still. He is not 8 months pregnant, and been on bed rest for 6 weeks trying to prevent him from coming, only now to have to wait another month! I'm so depressed and impatient. This must be the stage of pregnancy you forget, or nobody would have more than one baby. He said I could do all I want to encourage labor to come on its own... and I would love to... if I wasn't in so much pain all the time! I feel like someone is playing a cruel joke on me. I know it is perfectly reasonable to expect that you would get to your due date with your first baby, and I shouldn't be complaining, but it is much harder to accept when you are trying to prevent labor at 30 weeks, and when the baby drops to +1 station 8 weeks before your due date. Anyone who has had a baby know what that feels like. It is beyond uncomfortable. It would only be fair then, that he come at 38 weeks.
Everybody pray for a Jan 16th birthday.
Or pray that somehow I'm sedated until Jan 28th so I don't lose my mind.
4 comments:
That makes me so sad for you! I will be praying for that little boy to come early! I just got your invite in the mail today...I won't be able to make it and I'm so sad. Hope the shower goes great!!
Just have sex.....end of story.
I remember being on bed rest with Abbie (only for a month) and I thought when I could let her come she just would....ha, ha! You are right it is a cruel joke and the guys just don't get it. My doctor told me the same advice that your dad gave you.....but it sounded better coming from a real Doctor;)
Hang in there he will come when he is supposed to come. I will see you at the shower...unless your in labor!
How come everyone knows about this shower but your Mom? I thought it was going to be Dec 26th - If I had known it was going to be Jan
4th I could have sent a gift - or considering the present circumstances maybe I would have flown in in for it. Mom's are always the last to know stuff! Hope you have fun at your shower - I'll be thinking of you.
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